The love dare day 1

For the next day, resolve to demonstrate patience and to say nothing negative to your spouse at all. If the temptation arises, choose not to say anything. it's better to hold your tongue than to say something you'll regret.

Wow, ok so I thought that would be easy enough to do. Hahaha, right after reading the dare I started to think of all the times and subjects I had negative thoughts towards my wife. I pictured the moments and situations and allowed my mind to wonder off, telling myself: "Ok, I can do this. I'm in the perfect mindset and don't feel any repressed anger or hardly any ;-)". This should go very smoothly". I almost went on to reading the 2nd dare, thinking I was so cool.

A couple minutes later, without even noticing it (I only realised this hours after all this was done) I had started to openly criticise my wife in regards to the way she wanted to cook the porc for a supper. Without even blinking, I went right into what I had 30 minutes ago tapped myself on the back for not going to do.

How crazy was that. It's not until later that evening that I realised what I had done and that I had just sacrificed my first dare. So then I thought, ok lets start all over. Lets start now and go on for 24 hours and lets call that a day.

Then I told myself. YOu know, whatever happens, happens for a reason and evening though I did mess up the first dare, here's a perfect situation for me to do something different and put my love for my wife to the test. So I picked up the phone (I was driving to a meeting that evening) and told my wife how sorry I was for being an ass about her lack of originality and that I had no right to be that way with her. Wow, I have just set the stage for an amazing 40 days for I have realised that I don't "have" to be perfect. Perfect doesn't exist. However, I can make sur I'm 100% aware of what is going on and be completely honest with myself and make sure I apoligize for a messed up situation.

So all and all, I learned a great lesson today. It's never as easy as it seems and patience and kindness need awarness and a desire to improve oneself. I'm happy that I messed up and even happier for the courage I took to apologize for my behavior.

Day one = check.